A Crazy Last Minute Plan

2012, Mar 21

unintentionally attended one of the most exclusive parties of the year, on a weeknight, not to mention having to pull off sneaking out of class early, undressing in the back seat of a car, wearing ugly working shoes with a borrowed dress, and putting on make-up in less than 2 mins with a bunch of people starring at me...

pretty crazy, but amazed i actually did all that after being a retiree for so long. still, had a blast attending the event, all thanks to HT (mastermind) who came up with everything.

ticket to the partay

just before we went in. with HT

with GG

polaroid of us.

they had girls goin round taking photos for guests as souvenirs.

cool bartender mixing up drinks for us.

super like! coconut and black label. smooth. but idk the name.

it's kinda hard to describe my experience at the event. it not helping that i didnt take many photos that night, but just imagine lots of waiters / waitresses waiting on you, serving a free flow of delicate chocolate truffles, signature cocktails, and black label through out the entire night. deco was fab, setup was fab, stage was fab, layout of events was fab, everything was so classy and stylo. only let down was the music, thus making the whole night lack something essential.

still, it was great. and i actually got to go. there must have people wanting in but failed to get passes. lol. i feel like the passes might just have been wasted on me as i didnt party hard enough. apologies for that :P


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Blogging in the Bus !

Am on the road now. Spending at least 2 hours of my birthday alone in bus :|

The result?
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This random post with random pictures.

Me with my earphones on and all wrapped up like wan tan.

Lomo autumn effect ♥

Cccold ! Need to go to the bathroom urgently. Plus super jam now. Faster reach ah!


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Hand-written.

What do you do when you're all fucked up and no one else gives a fuck about you?

too much that i'm asking for...

squeeze in some time for this before i continue my robot regime @.@

it's been work non stop. and yeah, i'm already losing most of my human like behaviour and characteristics.

SEGi n UPM are killing me. it's like they've teamed up to murder me mercilessly from the inside. sucking away my vitality faster than i can recharge, leaving me barren and hollow. and i'm here, dying a slow and painful death

when i'm not taking orders from bossy bosses, running errands, rushing to complete tasks dumped onto me with ridiculous deadlines and instructions, i'm doing all that i can for my assignments, for the very sole purpose to pass and scrape through all my assessments.

would love to shut / power down my brain and other bodily functions and just blank out.

you wouldn't believe it, but through all this, i've actually learnt the meaning of true sacrifice @.@ cheesy, i know. but still, i've never had to sacrifice so much before! sleeping time, paktor time, family time, yumcha time, self indulgence time...

and i wonder... why did i ever sign up for this in the first place?

still, quitting isn't one of my options. i'm just not a quitter i guess :)

a smile! it's a wonder i managed to pull that off.

alright. break's over.



i miss slacking.


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picture post :)

i don't really like it when all i see on my blog are word posts after word posts.

am gonna hang up some pictures here.

colourize this place a lil :D

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i always have to force her to take pic with me...
though she grumbled, this turned out pretty nice ♥



my first bite of tutti frutti !
baby sis belanja-ed me. hee.



and yes. i forced her to take this one too.
lol.

psyco-ed her to geta pair of converse with me xD
hardly 2 weeks old. and they're already covered in mud.



laa... no more hanging out till she comes back in june :/

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i don't admit it much...
but i miss her.
i don't show it much...
but i like having her around.

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till our next rendezvous.



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in class.... once more.

my brain operates at such a speed where even snails find offensive.

i sounded so dumb with the lecturer and the 32 other students looking at me. wondering what in the world i was trying to say.

couldn't compose short, witty answers even though the questions were about me. super fail at being spontaneous. i had time. wasn't even the first one to be called.

it's like i don't know myself.

questions shot at us:

• what's your name
• where you're from
• what you're doing
• how much do you know about research
• what do you hope to obtain at the end of this course

i struggled at answering all those questions. only managed to blurt out my name without getting it wrong. i got so tongue tied. stammered. syntax, grammar all fail. stringed a few random words together and mumbled them out.

listening to the others talk about themselves... pouring out glamourous infomation... sharing their ambition... they sounded so confident and mature. they know. they know what they want. what they're doing. while i shrunk in my seat... feeling small and puny.

honestly, what i had in mind at that time were all rubbish and nonsensical answers. typical for childish-forever-stuck-in-that-stage me.

i have zero idea on what i'm doing or where i want to go. i have no solid plans for the future and i dont even know why i'm doing this. probably just escaping from making further decisions in life.

besides, it's not only that i don't know myself well. it's now more obvious then ever that I fail to speak well in front of large groups. super awkward and stutter like no body's business. gahHH. i sound like such a geek.


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on a different note, am really glad to be in class again. sitting down listening, absorbing, learning, hearing bout things i never knew existed, taking notes. can't be happier. absolutely calms me down and i even managed to relax a bit; with it being such a nice contrast to the never ending hecticness and fast pace at the workplace which drains all the life out of me.

as a good friend of mine once said: it's just the beginning.

which it really is. assignment all not piling up yet.

let's hope i'll be able to survive this.

*fingers crossed*



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