You Can Never Change.

once an arse, always an arse.



even if u start now, it's probably too late already.

but at least u tried and u can console yourself by saying that it's better late than never.

btw, i've forgiven.

but never forgotten.



what's done is done.
and what's lost is lost.


just live with that.

I Just Want to Know.

i was listening to random songs and Linkin Park's Leave out all the Rest's lyrics bore deep into me. it made me couldn't help but wonder...

no matter how things are.
no matter where life takes you to.
no matter who you're with and what you're doing...

will i still have a tiny little place at the back of your heart?
will i still remain as someone special and dear to you?

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i'm hoping that i still am.
and always will be.

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i just hope.
i'm not demanding for anything.

you don't have to do anything to prove anything.

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What have you been up to?

dear blog,

i missed out several posts which i only got to type out mentally in my brain before falling asleep. wasn't really expecting myself to be so busy with so many things to do and so little time in my hands.

but for one, i'm actually glad that things have started to slow down and stopped being so hectic for me (:

this is because i'm such a big fat slacker! love having nothing to do, lazing and slacking my ass off *which is getting bigger and bigger each time they see me* - (according to my frens) ;P

i left all my responsibilities in s.a. and escaped back to mlk for cny. am sooo in love with everything that has been going on for the entire week.


some captured moments with my darling fly:

self syok pics with my friends:

my updates :

• done with my play production
• celebrated 3 in 1 - early valentine's + reunion + anniversary
• movie marathon
• collected big red ang pows
• played poker for the 1st time
• lost money gambling
• stuffed my face with good food
• ditched all my assignments
  

so what have you been up to?

hey you.

i dont need fame,
i dont need popularity,
i dont need acquaintances or friends to make me feel that i'm needed or important.


i dont need a facebook profile with thousands of friends,
i dont need big groups or gangs to hang out with.
i dont need being acknowledged or welcomed by others around me.
i dont need to be significant in anyone's life.


i just dont need anything anymore. i've already got all that i ever will need.

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Off Mood

come back! i need you! without you... i can't do anything. due dates are like so freaking near. and i hate it when you're gone...

dear mood... please, come back... come back to me. don't drift further and further away from me.

Puzzled

out of words to describe what i feel now.

things just don't really make sense anymore.













empty
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Sempoi !

last friday i finished class early at 10. (the other class was canceled and there was no theater practice!) since i was dying to see him and since he only had class at 2.30, i suggested that he come kidnap me and take me back to subang so that we'll be able to spent the weekend together.

by the time we packed my stuff, drove around, got stuck in the jam, bought slurpees on the way, picked Ed and sent him to his office, it was almost already 2.

being lazy as usual, we hung out, baring-baring and chatted bout random stuff till 2.30 came and passed.

me: wei, late d... dont want go class meh?
him: later la. i memang want to go late one...
me: dont so lazy lah... always go late... faster, go change.
him: dun wan lah. this class boring... can i ponteng? bB... let me ponteng lah...
me: why want to ponteng? give me 3 good reasons.
him: ......... the class very boring *kesian face*
me: ok... 2 more reasons?
him: .......... hmm... the lecturer's english sucks. i dont understand.
me: *no choice* ok. i accept.

(continuous persuading went on till i gave in.)

me: ok. i let u ponteng, but nxt time i ponteng multimedia u cant scold me k *evil grin*
him: yer..... where can?
me: can... barter trade mah!
him: hmm... like that i dont want ponteng d lah. if not u also keep ponteng.

by the time all the debates and persuading was over with and he finally decided to go to class, it was already past 3. i drove him to class and in the car i asked -

me: Byy... late almost one hour d.... how? i thought u say ur lecturer very garang one?
him: yah... last week got ppl come late, she say nxt time better dont come. sit outside.
me: u not scared u kena meh?
him: dont worry... i got a very good excuse. my lecturer sure accept one.

wanna know what his excuse was?

lecturer: raymond sim, come here. why are u so late?
him: sorry miss... my girlfriend merajuk lah just now... have to pujuk!