Rolling in The Deep.

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love them both, the song and the fellas covering it.







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The Gift.

sohai girl xP

pawned it in less than 3 hours!

i like her books. they never fail to make me cry!

i'm such a sucker.

though i know it's fiction, and things like that don't happen in real life, i fall for it anyway.

well, that book was my 2009's christmas pressie from him.

yeah. it's like more than half a year ago.

but i had left it virgin and only rapped it this morning xP

i came on to it hard, fast and steady...

and left it lying sore and vulnerable on the couch when i was done with it.




ugh, and that pic of me looks dumb. lol.
another thing is that there's no photoshop or any other photo editing programs in this comp.
cant make myself look less dumb!

sigh...

my lappie...

imy so muchhhh!

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I feel the same.

dont doubt what we have!

***

i'm just as unhappy as u are when we argue.

it hurts me just as much when we both aren't on talking terms.

it pains me equally when i know you're unable to smile.

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it's probably because i'm better at controlling my emotions than you are that it doesn't show.

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i love you so.

and i think you already know that.

it's just that when things go wrong, you for second, tend to forget that.

***

please smile again.

i'd love that.

I never knew...

that two individuals could love each other that much.



it's not superficial. not skin-deep. not cosmetics or gimmicks.

it's something so strong, so ardent, so alluring and enticing.

it's already embedded deep inside the both of you and you never want to let go.

you feel that you belong and he wants you as much as you want him.



to the extend where ego and pride crumbles and give way.

right and wrong don't matter anymore.

because you know that there's nothing else worth losing.



now i know that such a love exists.

i believe in it and won't ever let it die.




ps:// and i love you so.

I think...

feelings are overrated.

get a hold of your head.

don't let them mess with you.

don't go down so easily.


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but on a flip side...



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feelings are a great way to indulge.

they make u fantasize.

dream.

but also leaves you pondering.

feelings... feelings...
so diverse. so mixed. so varied. so distinct.



so what are u feeling right now?

I Just Want to Know.

i was listening to random songs and Linkin Park's Leave out all the Rest's lyrics bore deep into me. it made me couldn't help but wonder...

no matter how things are.
no matter where life takes you to.
no matter who you're with and what you're doing...

will i still have a tiny little place at the back of your heart?
will i still remain as someone special and dear to you?

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i'm hoping that i still am.
and always will be.

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i just hope.
i'm not demanding for anything.

you don't have to do anything to prove anything.

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Mixed Emotions.

Things have been going so well for me for the past few weeks. I’m always happy. Smiling almost all the time, cheerful and bugging others, being hyper n all. No worries. No tears. No frustrations.

Despite that, I can’t help feeling bad when the people around me are down. They are great people and they deserve to be happy too. Why is it that I’m the only one who’s overwhelmed in all this goodness while they’re out there suffering? I know I’m no one to be deciding who should be and shouldn’t be suffering. They say that it is all already written out somewhere, pre-destined. But I still wish and hope that everything will be ok for everyone else. Yea, I know. It won’t make any difference. It’s just a silly wish from me.

I cry when I see my girl friends cry. I can relate to the pain my friends feel when they get hurt. I feel sorry for those who are in really crappy situations when it’s not their fault at all. I feel touched when I see others trying so hard to get out of their struggle. I just can’t help feeling guilty because I’m happy while others are upset. No one chooses to be unhappy. No one chooses to be stuck in shit. No one wants a life full of downs downs and more downs.

Do all things come to an end eventually? Am I heading in that direction? I don’t know why. I’ve got a bad feeling about this. I hope I’m wrong though.

Hang in there people. Be strong. I heart all of u.