Two Hearts...

two hearts resting side by side
scrupulously near, yet painstakingly far
crushed by doubt
crushed by grudge
forever hold a joy unreal
yield all pains
yield all sorrows
forever knows no trust

two hearts resting side by side
one shielded, one shattered
bears no consideration
bears no forgiveness
bound to condemn and hate
full of remorse
full of despair
bound to fall apart

two hearts resting side by side
trapped in delusion
trapped in vain
search but find no way out

two hearts resting side by side
deprived of hope
deprived of faith
lost with no direction

Paint you an upside down smile

don't frown boy, don't frown...
there's no reason to be down...
leave it behind, let it go...
all your worries and your woe...

i'm here, always and whenever...
but turn to me, you will never...
the smile on your face disappears...
and that sends my heart to tears...


perhaps, i can never paint it upright again.



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It's been a lil too quiet in here!

in my defense, i do log in to my blogger to see what is going on with my peeps and my cursor does hover over the NEW POST button but i never end up clicking on it.

this girl has been organizing the mess in her head which is even more tangled up compared to Rapunzel's hair.

well, finally completing your studies is something to go bonkers about, something to celebrate, and probably something that makes you proud because you have actually achieved something. on the contrary, it has done nothing but upset me in all ways possible. for the past few weeks, i've been catching up with my own thoughts, feelings, wanting to spill but not being able to. to be honest, i got lost, was extremely down and depressed, trying to figure out lots of stuff which apparently i'm not going to disclose here. (i still keep some things private)

to give a brief description, it's kinda like i don't know how to go on from here. and i super envy those people who have their entire lives planned out in front of them, where they already know exactly what is it that they want. i haven't got a clue and am still figuring it out.

the past few weeks has also been filled with lots of pain :'(
out of nowhere, the corners of my lips cracked and bled.
and consequently a gigantic ulcer conveniently chose the tip of my tongue to grow on.
it's ouch and double ouch.

(sorry, no pictures. the sight is too revolting. wouldn't want anyone to flag my blog xP)


december is supposed to be a happy month for everyone. why the hell am i so caught up in negativity? so come make me happy.



forcing a painful smile :)


x