Tuesday, September 28, 2010

i dont need anyone to tell me this.
i already know.
i'm a lousy person.
lousy enough.
lousy enough to hurt everyone that cares about me.

i'm sorry.

Friday, September 24, 2010

www.ptptn.gov.my

they have decided to reduce the interest rate from 3% to only 1%.
so peeps, log in and update your account details.

hope that you guys are happy to hear bout this~

Saturday, September 18, 2010




no matter which path i take, it only ends up in more disappointments and heartache.




I’m looking at every possible way I can. Trying to find a way out. Looking for a safe house. Some where I’ll never get hurt again. Scanning and looking for every available possibility, I soon came to a halt and realized that there’s no where I can turn to.

In a situation like this, friends and family are not an option.

I just don’t feel like opening up anymore. And I find it pointless. What’s the point of opening up? Who will really want to be listening? Everyone has their own lives to live and worry about.

I’m just redundant.

Ouch.

head hurts.
back hurts.
stomach hurts.
basically almost everything hurts.
i'm not exaggerating though.
even now the heart hurts a lil.

i hate being a girl.

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Sunday, September 12, 2010



wow. i scrolled down my blog and noticed that i have not blogged about emo stuff in a long time.
well.... it doesn't mean that i'm not emo anymore...
who has a 100% happy life anyway?
there are bound to be unwanted things that you didn't see coming which hit you right in your face,
leaving you dumbfounded, scarred, and disappointed.


not blogging about emo stuffs anymore simply means that i subconsciously choose not to remember them anymore and let them be bygones.
it's not like i intentionally installed a filter to keep out all the bad and only allow the good to be published, misleading others into thinking that i otherwise lead a really happy and peaceful life.
somehow or rather, i just managed to let it all go.
and sooner or later, it doesn't bother me anymore.


as quoted by my friend, this might seem like me taking another step closer to adulthood.
this is good, isn't it?
being able to take control of my own emotions and sound less like a mad hag.
hmm, i am, i indeed am growing up :)


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Break.



was so glad that i got to take a break from school. ran far far away from the school @ kuchai lama and never felt so relaxed :D

so here's what i did.


1. drove to lcct to fetch my baby sis. she's on holiday too! mid sem break in ums.

waiting for herrr.


2. spent 3 days and 2 nights in cameron. (also don's farewell)

plucked. purposely. T.T

the girls :D

the guys :O


3. baby sis treated me to pancakes which she had been craving for for more than a year.

@ paddington.


4. chopped my hair off !

and i like it !


5. had a picnic and flew kites.

seaside :)

the tam chiaks whacking the food.

kites in the sky. too bad no nice pics of us actually flying them.


6. went book shopping!

thanks daddy! and Nice, you can borrow them after your exam ;)


7. celebrated raya with helmi and co.

if you're wondering, this was taken 2 years back.
didnt bring my camera with me when i went to his house.



8. last but not least, i got bitten by a centipede in my own bathroom @.@

resulting in this. my arm still aches from the jab :/




well, some of the pictures are just for illustration purposes :P

and sad thing is the break is almost over. lol.

counting down the days to the end of my pathetic internship.

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Saturday, September 11, 2010

i realise that...



they love me. they care. i couldn't ask for more :)



ps://

i'm really sorry because i can so frequently be a pain in the ass. but you guys never complain, and willingly tolerate and accept me all the same. i'm constantly being pampered and given in to and i feel that i'm always on the receiving side. nonetheless, i really appreciate what everyone has done for me, and treasure all the bonds built over time.


friends, family, boyfriend. i love all of you.


please, ignore the sequence!


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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Poor Lil Thing.


well, my lil cutie is stuck there because big bully Bacon invaded my room, kidnapped my lil cutie and dragged it off to a dark private corner and rapped it again and again.

i was lucky that a good samaritan came across the dreadful incident and chased bad rapist Bacon away. had to wash and soak the poor thing in softener to get rid of Bacon's bad breath and stinky drool.

safety precautions are needed! Bacon is constantly popping into my room, roaming around, trying to catch a glimpse of my cutie. hired security guard Sim Chung Heng Raymond to guard my cutie. hope he does his job when i'm not around.