Friday, December 25, 2009

Fli. Flo. Flu.


not swine flu! just normal flu. ray had it for almost a week, zue caught it from some girl in class. and now it's my turn. cant i just turn it off???


and darn! i hate it!
reason being:

  1. it makes me look dirty (the mucus hanging from your nose)
  2. it makes me look ugly (watery eyes and big red nose)
  3. sneezing non stop
  4. runny nose
  5. waste of tissue (my new best friend)
  6. feels yucky
  7. flu med makes me drowsy
  8. cant breath properly
  9. blur
  10. gross
  11. irritating and disturbing
  12. makes my voice sound all weird
i could go on and on and on. ergh!!


wan tan/ dumpling

Friday, December 18, 2009

Do you?

trouble follows me almost everywhere i go.
it's so hard to start anew.
so hard to stay happy.
so hard to stay out of stupid fights.

we argued so much until it almost tore us apart. i'm so glad you didnt give up. your text made me cry and miss you so much.

Do you still want this boyfriend that loves you?
the one who will care for you,
the one that kuat complain
the one you could easily read his thoughts,
the one who'll miss you,
the one who'll kiss you tell you everything is fine,
the one who'll hug you to sleep,
the one who'll share everything with you,
the one who will reply I LOVE YOU! when you say you love him?

and my reply is of course YES! yes i do.

baby, i'm sorry for all the arguments. let's wrap em up in old newspaper, fasten it with lots of cellotape, put it in a plastic bag, place it in an old biscuit tin and bury it where it'll never be found again.

i ♥ u.

Ugly Monster.

we all know that a person's personality can effect their outer beauty.

you may have skin as white as snow, lips as red as blood, and hair as black as ebony, or even be the fairest of them all, but if your heart's rotten and you have a shitty attitude, you'll never be labeled beautiful.

and if you're wondering, ahh... yess! i'm indeed refering to some girls that i know. they're simply all about bitching mouths, being delusional, and even thinking that they own the world. can't even shut up for once. disrupting classes and being insufferable, doing as they wish, having no respect for others and sibuk bercomplain all the time. self obsessed and desperate for attention. and oh so, so, so dramatic.

miss know-it-all, think twice yah. you're not as cool as u think you are. u think u're the only one who understood the joke? uh oh... the joke's on you actually.

fyi, i'm not the only one feeling that way about em. lol. it's obvious. we're just keeping quiet and not crazy about the exposure. prefer being backstage than on the frontlines.

Monday, December 14, 2009

ARrghHH


i have datelines to meet but it seems that i just don't care?


i'm simply not enthusiastic about this at all.

why do we have to do this subject? i honestly find it a waste of time and energy and i don't see how i'm going to benefit from it.

so sick of the script. others will do way better than i can. hearing you complain so much. all you do is pour out endless complaints brainlessly without being able to come up with something better.

want this responsibility so much? just take it. i'd be more than glad to get it off my hands.

reluctant to dedicate any of my time to this.

wishing that this was over with!

Losing.

i want no news of either of you, but somehow facebook has just got to go flash 'em right in my face.

i know i'm on the losing end right now. i missed my favorite yearly event for 2 years in a row for goddamn stupid reasons. seeing pictures posted by others only caused nostalgia and made me long to be there.

i can't go back. and i won't either.

always have seen u guys as friends so dear to me. i've always been soft. especially towards you guys that i love and trust so much. whatever quarrels, arguments, misunderstanding, or problems that we had with each other were always put behind. "kissing & making up" each and every time shit happened. forgiving and forgetting. putting you guys above anything else.

in just two months, i lost 3 of you. gave up and felt that it meant nothing anymore, nothing to you, you and you, as well as nothing to me. this is the first time in my life that i ever had to lose people i called friends in this particular manner, and let me tell you, it totally sucked.

my absence won't be noticed. and i'm sure none of you would regret what you did and could care less.

but on the bright side, i got over it. i got over you.

you guys despise each other so much, but in fact you're just exactly the same. committing to the same crime. i could tolerate the pushing, but this time, you guys pushed too far.

so long, farewell. this is officially goodbye.