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direct quote read off someone's comment from Mr. Ernest Ng's facebook page via some comment threads:

sleep is for the weak!

gah. maybe i AM weak. that's why i'm so crappy now as i didnt get enough of it. the sad part is, i have to smile and be nice all the time i'm here. struggling to keep my eyes open and i can already imagine what it's gonna be like for the next whole week i'm here.


back to why Mr. Ernest Ng's name is in this post. i don't even know why is it that it suddenly hit me that i had left out intoducing his comic blog here though i've promised him ages ago. so guys, here it is:

and this is him:

lol. cropped him out to give him a lil limelight here. hee.
he actually fits into the white space up there.

well, he's the creator, artist and author of dontlikethatbro.blogspot.com

visit and you'll see what it's like. and i bet that you'll bookmark/follow it just like i did and anticipate mondays and thursdays for his comics. oh yeah. this post is probably aeons late, but still, go ahead and catch up from its first ever post. and i probably dont have to promote this much as it's already getting a whole lot of attention from the blogsphere. well what are friends for right? or rather, i'm just showing off my exceptionally good advertorial writing skills xD


ohh..

off course again. this time back to where i am and why i'm struggling to keep my eyes open:

am in Kuantan, Pahang now. will be residising in Duta Village Beach resort up till friday. nothing to say bout the place. didn't even bother to take any pictures, so just imagine what it's like here. lol. my awesome photography skills will probably make the place look even more gruesome. just glad that there is wifi, and that the speed is not too bad. hee.

and yeah. i almost missed my flight this morning! thank god i didn't, else i'll get slaughtered alive. the first thing was that i conveniently turned off my alarm when it rang at 0520 and continued to sleep like nobody's business. woke up in a shock 40 mins later (0600) and started to panic cause my flight to Kuantan was supposed to be at 0720. rushed to the airport half-dressed and fml, super long queue at the check in counter.

by the time settled check in, almost 0700. went to the departure area, the flight schedule showed that my flight had been retimed to depart at 0740. still got time lah i thought. didnt wanna leave the bf so soon as i wouldn't be seeing him for a week and wanted to spend those precious last minutes with him so off we went, dilly dalying.

and when i finally had the sense to go to the boarding gate, the officer who checked my hand-carry luggage told me that i had to run. i didn't bother and didn't even pick up my pace, just looked at my watch and saw that i still had plenty of time.

by the time i reached the boarding gate, the plane was already all set to leave without me. got scolding from the lady; the flight had always been scheduled to leave at 0720 and there were no changes. argued and finally she punched in the pincode for the door releasing me and i ran towards the plane.

was i delusional? i really saw the notice that they re-timed the flight.

but everything is ok now.

am just thankful for that.



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as usual. i have no rights over my emotions.

i'm not allowed to be angry. not allowed to be disappointed. not allowed to feel unsatisfied. not allowed to be frustrated. not allowed to feel unappreciated. not allowed to feel hurt.

cos as soon as i show the slightest signs of any negative emotions, i'm done for. a serious turn of events will hit me, causing the pain to grow ten folds.

feeling tired, i just want a wee bit of consoling and comfort. not accusations. not sneering and mocking. not hurtful comments. not a full grown argument. and mostly, not isolation.

chasing and chasing. what exactly am i chasing for? rejection?

as usual. everything is unreal.

smiles can never last more than a fortnight. they are all merely illusions to trick me into thinking that everything is fine. it's not. and i guess that it never will be.


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Aww, you didn't have to ♥

i know, i understand,
that your work schedule is extremely tight
and you hardly ever have any time for yourself.

you've been working really hard
and i don't blame you if you do not have any time for me.
i totally understand.

you didn't have to come all the way just to surprise me you know.
i'd still love you.

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he probably didn't notice the stalker taking pics of him from above.

him. exiting the building.

too many flashes in his face from where i was standing.

that's why he turned away.

he was actually looking at me :D


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LOL. Actually, i didn't even know he was going to be there. It so happened that we went to tropicana to catch a movie after the super yummy duck rice at manjalara and saw the huge crowd gathered before the stage. It was weird for so many people to be there. Tropicana was usually peaceful and crowd-less, that was why we liked it so much. It didn't take a genius to figure out what was going on due to the gigantic posters and banners all around.


We were like:" ohhhhh...... Lin Jun Jie is coming.... patutla so many people here."

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I really wonder.

Why did JJ choose the exact same day I was going to tropicana to have his autograph session there?

There's only one simple explanation.

He went there because he wanted to see me xP

hee.

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Back to reality.
Want an English lesson? I learnt something from the movie we watched before spying on Lin Jun Jie. Ed chose to watch "Just Call Me Nobody" because of Mark Lee and Eric Tsang. It turned out that they were only cameos. It was a little funny, but mostly dumb and boring. I'll highlight the funny part for ya k. (even though it's a lil lame)

This is how a family in ancient China teaches their children to speak English:

1. BEES; - "鼻屎" (bi shi)

2. EARTH; - "耳屎" (er shi)

3. GOES; - "狗屎" (gou shi)

4. MOUTH; - "猫屎" (mao shi)

5. KNEES; - "你死" (ni si)

6. WAS; - "我死" (wo si)

7. DOES; - "都死" (dou si)

8. ONE DOLLAR; - "完蛋了" (wan dan le)


Dumb right? LOL. for my readers who can't read chinese, pls pls pls ask someone who does to explain it to you.


till then.



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Living in the Past

you are constantly being reminded of things u don't want to be reminded about.
you said you can let go, but actually you still feel its shadow overwhelming you.
you get carried away by memories and you cant differentiate reality from make-believe.

you let yourself be delusional.
you suffer when you let miserable thoughts take you over.
you could be happy, but instead you chose to be hung over on negativity.

you betray your self constantly.
you prefer deception over the inevitable truth.
you want to hold on, and you're the one not letting go.

you think about the present and the future.
but in fact, you're going no where.
still stuck. living forever. in the past.