some random statements.

1. I realise that I'm not a good sister.

I'm not there for my lil sis as much as she needs me to and I pay the slightest attention to her. Why am I so stingy in this sense? I'm so caught up in ME that none of my attention or concern goes to her. Always assuming and expecting that she's independent enough.

2. I still don’t know what I want to do.

I fail to answer that question no matter who asks it and when it is asked and I noticed that I get asked that question a lot recently. I feel sorry for myself for not being able to answer that. I’m pathetic.

3. I always have mixed feelings.

Unexpectedly, some feelings always resurface when you least expect them to.

4. I stalked someone awhile ago.

Someone of no importance to me. Someone I’ve almost forgotten existed. Someone who once hurt me. Someone shameless. Someone with the worst possible morale. And it leaves me hanging now. What on earth initiated me to do that? It was probably a waste of my 48 minutes and it now leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.

5. I ate dinner with a bunch of aunties.

Well, their company wasn’t that bad. Had a pretty decent time. They actually humoured me. They complained about kids nowadays not knowing who Mahatma Ghandi, nor Mother Theresa, nor Chairman Mao is. The only significant figures to these kids are Lady Gaga and Justin Bieber. Yea. I admit, kids nowadays are ignorant and are completely oblivious on significant historical figures as such. I am lucky, I’ve got the best of both worlds. And hey, I thought to myself, I’m going to end up like them pretty soon. Just call me aunty.

6. I’m amazed that I’m still up at this hour.

It’s already 0339. This is officially the first time I’ve stayed up so late ever since I’ve started working.

7. Tomorrow's the 14th of March again.

I miss you. Have never stopped missing you. Have been missing you for the past 14 years.

8. Am turning 24 this 24th.

And now I'm wondering why the numbers are so coincidental. No biggie. Just another step nearer to auntyhood. And I never get excited about this day. It reminds me of too many things. Am starting to get a lil emotional now. Am telling myself to stop now.

at least i have an update.

kthxbye.

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