zero, or maybe even below sea level

only done with the first paper, but fighting spirit already zero. how to kao tim the remaining 3 papers leh?

i hate my sudden don't care attitude :-/

i want to work really hard, but my head and its counterparts won't let me. my best guess is that they're already worn out and exhausted from all the work and pressure i've gone through non-stop for the past few months. they're making a stand and protesting against doing anything that is stressful or would strain me out.



or am i just making up excuses to give up and stop fighting?


i've lost my focus.


tired and bummed out with all that's going on. there's no "me time" at all. and i can't live without that. no compromises. ever. there's so many things i want to do which i haven't got the chance to.

eg:

• edit + upload pics from Chinese New Year. (which i hadn't had time to do in 4 freaking months =.=")
• exercise! jog / cycle / badminton. (seriously anything at all. would kill for a chance to sweat it out) 
• change this blog's template and layout.
• clean my room.
• go see doctor.
• mlk
• my friends

i guess i've made my point. the list could go on and on...


already planned on when to take leave and how to spend my 4 consecutive weekends after this semester wraps up. only few days away... but still seems so far fetched. seriously. can't wait.


persuading self to stay positive and focused.


6 days.


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