seeing you s a d makes me s a d too. i'd do anything to cheer u up again.

today's playlist.

14.3

I remember you... not only on this day.

I miss you still... though I've adapted and grown.

I know that you're always there, always watching, always guiding.

You are, and always will be... part of me.




these are for you... and i love you so.

i realise...

... that this blog is kinda emo. even after i swore that i'd stop. my previous blog was way too freakin emo n i created this one to lead me in a different direction. lol. not working! ended up with enough and more emo posts.

... another thing is that i dont usually blog bout stuff that i've been doing. where i went. what i did. what happened. etc. like most people do. i rather simply just blurt out my feelings. my viewpoints. my likes. my dislikes. my hates and my loves.

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am i weird for being this way? idk n idc actually. style baby, that's my style :P

compare to some copy cats i know. no identity, forever living in someone else's shadows. dam freaking imitator. even blog posts and blogging style also wanna copy. looking at that blog jus made me want to roflmao.

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i'm damn glad that this sem is coming to and end. finals in less than a week's time. starting on the 19th, ending on the 26th.

finally!!! i'm done with all the loathsome and endless activities in uni! activities which other people are so excited and eager about, are just a pain in the ass for me.

hate being busy. hate activities. hate commitment. hate responsibility.


and this was why i was so fking busy for the past few weeks:

1. reader's theater
2. choral speaking
   
3. mentor-mentee 1 Malaysia program.
4. microteaching project at SMK Alam Megah 2

consecutively for 4 weekends. ergh.


btw, click on the links for photos.



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Seasons.

not this seasons xD

Break-up Season

with plenty of lame reasons.
kesian u guys that kena dumped.
taking a break means it's over!
don't wait anymore! it's stupidity.
it means that she can flirt with other guys and do what ever she wants during that break and still have a bloody fool waiting for her after she's done.

problems.
problems.
and even more problems.
a break up might not be that bad.
cheer up!


Poker Season

gamble gamble.
throwing money away.
and i know some who are already addicted.


Conflict Season

friends.
my darling friends.
i miss those times.
it doesn't feel the same anymore.


Sweaty Season

Damn hot.
hotter than hot.
sticky.
feels like the end of days is coming.
2012. possible?




sorry for the short post pua!
did this during the last 15 mins of my multimedia class in comp lab.
chiao!



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Annoyed.

people create problems. the worse thing is, that you'd have to face these people everyday.

I dont normally curse and swear, i might say that i have rather good control over my temper and have the ability to tolerate and swallow it down.

shitty stuffs happen anywhere and everywhere. I just let it go, laugh it off and hope for the better.

this time, it's too much. again and again. over and over. getting worse each time. and i feel so dumb. it's just plain dumb being nice to people.

it totally sucks having sucky housemates. honestly. brainless bitches and bastards. damned good at complaining about others, duh... but doing the exact same thing. just like licking their own spit. ludah, pastu jilat balik.

NAH!


this is for you.





don't forget to read between the lines.

Only I Know

I always thought that i was easy to understand, easily read, something like a "what u c is what u get" kind of person.

but... it seems like no one really knows how i feel inside.

are you just bad guessers or is it that i'm a good actress?

anyway i totally suck in acting, as proven in my individual impromptu acting for theater class.

so, i don't think it's me that is hard to figure out...

just think and try to relate before asking k?

i have my reasons for doing what i do.

please don't question or doubt me. you know me better than you think you do.