super inconsistent twenty ten.

this year so far has brought me feelings so vast that i find it hard to believe that i am actually this unstable. lol. perhaps, this diagram can give you a lil idea on the emotional toll i took throughout 2010.

scary?
and it's not because of pms!

my summary:

Jan

had a great new year's dinner with family. excited bout theater. worked my ass off for it. conflict. got pissed at some people.

Feb

rehearsal. rehearsal. rehearsal. had fun preparing food for the theater. theatre was a success. early valentine’s celebration. cny ♥

March

dikir puteri. one malaysia day. microteaching project. birthday. sem break.

April

pressies. lies. fights. covering up.

May

more fights. coming clean. making up. got hurt. hurt someone. didnt bother to even try to work things out. living in pretense. gossiping and back stabbing.

June

final semester. straying further and further away from her. ignored that. hung out without her instead. felt guilty but ignored it. a lot of travelling between subang and s.a.

July

competency test results. sem break. drove a manual car for the 1st time in mlk. practicum briefing. freaked out. where the hell is kuchai lama. moved from s.a. to subang. hired a driver on a contract basis, a very dedicated one that is ;)

August

lots of stress and pressure. tired and worn out. prepared teaching materials. endless lesson plans. waking up at 5.30am every day. dropping dead in bed by 10.00pm. no life. miss my friends badly. realised that i havent been a good friend. realised how much she cared about me. i'm just plain selfish.

September

tried to make it up to her. sick of i-ppl. readers' theater project. freaking sick of i-ppl.

October

raya hols. cameron. got to know my students better. started to actually enjoy my practicum. god damn freaking sick of i-ppl. observations one after another. end of practicum.

November

a lot of time to myself. change of occupations from student to cheap maid. lots of barney stinson. results day. no direction. finding it hard to make decisions. failed to plan.

December

a lot of travelling between mlk and subang. job interviews. conflicts of interests. afraid. unsure. convocation ceremony. started a temp job. still am unsure.

there you go. that's about it. that's how my 2010 flew by so quickly.

as inconsistent as twenty ten may be, i feel truly blessed with all the great people in my life. am eternally grateful for all the love, care, support, and attention from my friends, my family, and my boyfie. i know that i'll never be alone. and with this, i'm not afraid of twenty eleven and am looking forward to it because i have all of you :)

let's make a new year's wish.

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stability.

yeah. i think that's the main thing i'm hoping for.

wishing everyone out there a great year ahead and may all of you achieve what you aim for.

happy new new all :D





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