E on Relationships

*cough and clears throat* 

please don't read if you are a click flick hater or if you don't have a strong enough stomach for cheesy lines :P



Ethan Ward's Relationship Theory

You know how they say no man is an island? Well, I think, actually, every man is an island

And relationships, are, like bridges

One guy, builds one half of the bridge, and the other guy, or, uh, gal, you know, builds the other half. And they try to meet, in the middle

But sometimes, the islands are too far apart

And, it's sad, but it happens. It's okay, because, sometimes it's just, time to move on

From 90210 - S01E22: The Party's Over

Yeah, this came from a chick flick... so?? So isn't there the slightest truth to what pretty boy E said? 

We absolutely cannot build that bridge ourselves. It has to be done together. If you find yourself doing all the hammering and piling and cementing and refurbishing alone, please think again. Esp to all my girlfriends, please don't do this heavy task alone!! Just build your side of the bridge, simple and strong; and if the guys wants to connect with you, let him pave the walkway with gold and diamonds before you let him in :P

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SPR trolling with me

i thought i was registered. i really thought so. but when i checked, there were no records of me. so i have to go do it all over again -.-


no complaints. don't mind doing it the second, or third, or fourth, or even the fifth time. then again, why must we register to gain eligibility to vote? we are Malaysians. aren't we all already eligible once we turn 21? so what's the point of registering? the info requested for on the registration form can all be retrieved from the Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara. so why must duplicate? waste paper? make it inconvenient? less voters to mess up what you already have under control? i don't know. tell me.

why can't we have Centralized Resident Registration where the status of the people are updated automatically? or even Same-day Voter Registration / Election Day Registration? as long as we have our MyCards, it should be fine right?

too many questions.

time to stop.

i don't know why i'm so effin' tired of everything.


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Baju Kurung Date ~

movie

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Paddington

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kenduri

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McD

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on a Saturday

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in baju kurung

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 us

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who says short updates don't count? 

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till the next one...

let's hope it doesn't take so long ;)

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Just Sharing...

ergh. am barely hanging on from the amount of work and stress from the office, rushing off to class (which is 30km away) everyday in peak hour jam, plus reaching home only at 10 every night in an extreme worn out state. despite all the hu-ha, still hanging on. must be made from steel!

am in the office now having a delayed lunch in front of my pc, checking mails and saw that daddy had forwarded some to me. speaking of daddy, you have no idea how much i miss him. really am considering taking one month unpaid leave to just slow everything down and keep sane.

well this is what i read and would like to share:

http://www.yeobeeyin.com/2012/06/entering-into-politics-story-behind.html

feel free to read up more on this lady at:

http://www.yeobeeyin.com/

her thoughts are pretty interesting and pretty much fascinated me and am looking forward to what this girl is going to do and can do.

am truly happy that there are still Malaysians out there who are willing to stand up and actually do something regardless of the appalling (according to how i see it) state the country is in now.

as skeptical as i may be about the future of Malaysia, am still hoping that there is a turn for the better.


*keeping my fingers crossed*


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I for one will never lower my standards for anyone, regardless of who they are and who they are to me

I Miss Langkawi

 i wanna go again! lets go. anyone? plan a trip and take me there please?


well i last went there in early July. it was actually my company trip and i kept putting off blogging about it because of some lame incident that happen which kinda spoilt my mood for the entire trip. despite my gloominess throughout it all, (am not gonna share the stupid story here) it wasn't a bad experience at all. loved the island, loved hotel, loved the food + booze, loved the places visited, loved it all ! the only thing missing were my friends / family / boyfie of course. and they would totally have made the trip 1000x better.

no more long winded stories. pictures ! (though not much. apparently selca / taking tonnes of pictures of yourself is not a current practice among my colleagues. they kept looking at me, sending weird vibes, and i stopped. no mood. haa, and that's not even the worse part. yet.)

the first stop: Dataran Lang.

HE-LANG-Kawi

bright faces. but we didnt sleep the whole night @.@

Meet Vivian and SuSee

some colleagues.

inseperable sea and sky

hotel room mirror ♥ 

took this on the boat when we went island hopping

Pulau Beras Basah

mini jetty

running out of ideas for captions. LOL

taken with front cam to send to ray in case he misses me :P

freaking salty.

i left my mark!

the boats wating to take us to the next island

a habbit i cant get rid off: selca

should have bought more! didnt manage to save any for myself.

all photos taken with iphone :)

there you go. my bits and pieces of my trip there in L.

finally managed to get this all up. thanks to the people who unintentionally rubbed the fun of L in my face via their recent blogposts and facebook albums. couldn't help myself from digging out all the photos and start blogging.

till the next time i see you L...

imma leave you now and go off to dream bout a perfect holiday.




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Infatuation

current fav song.

please don't watch the video! don't say i didn't warn you. horrible! with no relation to the song. should have done something to help enhance and portray the emotions the song carries.

what would you do if you wanted to share a song that you liked but the video sucked? wanted to embed just the audio, but somehow youtube sound quality sounded nicer.

so here it is:




simply heartfelt.


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Repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat :P

no, no... no worries. it's not Selena. just wanna share another song i'm putting on repeat atm ♥





love this so much! hope you do too :)




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Girly Max

hurried change of blog temp in the office. 

so pink and girly! maybe a lil too much for me. 

pardon the unmatching-ness of this with my age.

my blog now looks like a 13 year-old's.

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pinkify my blog even more. lol.

 pink phone cover. pink top.

pink poser!

pink. pink. pink. pink

 even the table clothes are pink!

am i pretty in pink? 

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can't get enough of pink?

visit my blog.

pink until you die :P

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"Ter"-click

aiyak. 

fooling around with the layouts and template. 

and i clicked on it. wtf.

stuck with this for now @.@

lazy me = ugly blog

i'll live with this till i can't stand the sight of it.

gah.

zero, or maybe even below sea level

only done with the first paper, but fighting spirit already zero. how to kao tim the remaining 3 papers leh?

i hate my sudden don't care attitude :-/

i want to work really hard, but my head and its counterparts won't let me. my best guess is that they're already worn out and exhausted from all the work and pressure i've gone through non-stop for the past few months. they're making a stand and protesting against doing anything that is stressful or would strain me out.



or am i just making up excuses to give up and stop fighting?


i've lost my focus.


tired and bummed out with all that's going on. there's no "me time" at all. and i can't live without that. no compromises. ever. there's so many things i want to do which i haven't got the chance to.

eg:

• edit + upload pics from Chinese New Year. (which i hadn't had time to do in 4 freaking months =.=")
• exercise! jog / cycle / badminton. (seriously anything at all. would kill for a chance to sweat it out) 
• change this blog's template and layout.
• clean my room.
• go see doctor.
• mlk
• my friends

i guess i've made my point. the list could go on and on...


already planned on when to take leave and how to spend my 4 consecutive weekends after this semester wraps up. only few days away... but still seems so far fetched. seriously. can't wait.


persuading self to stay positive and focused.


6 days.


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NO! this blog is NOT dead yet.

back to huha for a bit here.

can afford to spend a lil time here cos lady boss left for penang, yay!

no yelling, no screaming, no pushing, no rushing... but come to think of it, she is actually my daily "cup of coffee". the one that wakes me up from my half dead state, snaps me back to reality and gives me that oomph to think and act on matters that require my attention each and every day without fail. seriously, i can't start my work day without her. lol.



too long mei you blog liao. lost touch :-O

i wanna share something here which you guys might have already had laughed about already. still wanna keep some form of it here so i can look back and lol on it as and when i need a laugh.



visited Paradigm Mall already? if you haven't, you can check out its facebook page @http://www.facebook.com/ParadigmMall

the best part about the mall? the staff managing its facebook page. check out the thread below:

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10150881074948743&set=a.10150092462198743.282946.527478742&type=1&ref=nf

in the heat of things, some guai lan fella came up with an epic reply. i lol-ed so hard my classmates thought i was crazy. yeah. totally kantoi cos i was checking fb in class. whaaat?! boring lecturer. boring lecture. so fb lah :P

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10150932449509461&set=p.10150932449509461&type=1&ref=nf

funny fellas.



but overall, the mall ain't that bad lah. discovered 2 stalls that i really liked - "Chewy Junior" and "QBean". lol. both food stalls. yah... very helpful in keeping me sane and happy actually. i don't think the stalls are new, must have branches in some other places... but my first encounter with them was at Paradigm.

"Chewy" actually sells cream puffs. one of my fav things in the world! they are like so yummy. esp the cheese one. sorry. no pictures. tak sempat. too tempting d xD

"QBean" however were giving out free samples of soya bean ice cream. you won't know how awesome it is till you try it!! not a soya bean lover. but fell in love with the ice cream.

me and sb ice cream ♥

photo taken with HTC 1X

have to log off liao. my work space too open d... lotsa ppl walking past plus i'm just 2 ft away from the deputy principal's office. have to behave :-/

bye bloggie.

till next time.

ps:// love the new revamp of the blogspot! 

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why does it always seem like it's my fault?

if it really isn't my fault, then why do I feel like shit right now?

Take Home Exam

instead of a mid semester exam, for one of the subjects for my current semester, we went for a company visit. so after the visit....

prof:  you can write anything, 1 page, and submit to me and that will be the marks for your mid semester exam.
me: is it in report format?
prof: no. no need any format. you can write anything.
classmate: can be more than 1 page?
prof: no. only 1.

ya. he said write anything. so i betul betul write "anything". whole lot of rubbish, but have to sound convincing la kan? some hint of academics. pretend that i actually know what is going on. but seriously, i don't know what he wants. and 1 page? damn, i already took 4 - 5 pages of notes throughout the entire visit. funny. how to fit it all into 1? it only carries 10% so shouldn't make such a big fuss i guess.

well, here's the outcome.



i spent a whole chunk of my holiday writing this. damn! take that you. and good riddance. i'm done. finally.

my precious !

1st April


the title up there is referring to my weekends of course. ultimately, they're too precious to waste...

the thing is my mid semester exams are coming up. first reaction paper is on April 3rd.

my Mondays to Fridays are already hell. full of torture and deprived of fun... how could i? i just couldn't bring myself to spend the whole weekend studying...

instead, here I am at the badminton stadium in Cheras, waiting for the 3 semi-final matches of the Axiata Cup 2012 between M'sia and Indonnesia to begin.

got in with Ray's media pass and am allowed to sit anywhere I want :)

my view of the match

from where I am, I could also spy on Ray. Hee. make sure he's not off hitting on other girls or slacking :P

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15 April


lol. this post is 14 days late! supposingly this post was blogged live, and i seriously intended to publish the post on the spot but the blogger app on my phone kinda fail case. cant arrange photos / insert them where you want in the post. still need comp to edit. ended up postoning this for so long! just to insert the 2 pictures you see above @.@

might as well continue and prolong this post a lil :)

updates:

i did so badly for my reaction paper! wished i had studied harder though. the questions were so easy and straight forward! didnt write much. spent more than half of the time in the exam hall starring at the questions and having the questions stare back at me.

actually, all the answers can be found in our lecture notes. am kinda horrified that i'm not that kiasu anymore! the bachelor me would have studied like it really mattered, would have been super confident, and would have trashed that paper in a flash. where has all my kiasuness gone to :-O

if only... yea if only i'd given a lil more time and heart to preparing.

i'm sure my baby Guchie would have done better than i did

the same weekend (instead of studying), i met up with 2 girlies that i have not seen in ages. and my, do i miss hanging out with them.

finally got to try this durian ice thingy. so hard to find someone to share this with as most of the people around me loathed the taste and smell of durians. well, they dont know what they are missing out! this was super nice! though i would prefer it to be creamier, i was already satisfied and oogling at how it made my taste buds feel :D

S and I finished it in less than 15 mins. lol.

things have not changed. and they never will :)



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and i have another paper coming up this 17th (3 days time). and the bloody lecturer already scared the shit out of us. this exam contributes to 30% of the final grade. and the format: 1 essay question. write 14 pages. dafuq? why dont you go ahead and fail me already? see. i told you my kiasuness has taken a toll on me. it bailed when i needed it the most. lol. already have plans for tmr. how? ditch studying again? i've already decided to anyway.


lastly, would like to say that i'm really proud of myself for actually sticking to my 2012 new year resolutions so far:

Complain less

Love more

Be honest with myself

Say only things I mean

Make only promises I can keep

Keep the promises I make

http://vanillanstrawberries.blogspot.com/2011/12/gone-is-2011.html

am on track for all 6 of them ! yay! :D *beams* am glad that i'm able to stick by those little guides set by myself to help me be a better and happier person.


on another note, have got to set a reminder for myself.


dont forget to study! xD



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A Crazy Last Minute Plan

2012, Mar 21

unintentionally attended one of the most exclusive parties of the year, on a weeknight, not to mention having to pull off sneaking out of class early, undressing in the back seat of a car, wearing ugly working shoes with a borrowed dress, and putting on make-up in less than 2 mins with a bunch of people starring at me...

pretty crazy, but amazed i actually did all that after being a retiree for so long. still, had a blast attending the event, all thanks to HT (mastermind) who came up with everything.

ticket to the partay

just before we went in. with HT

with GG

polaroid of us.

they had girls goin round taking photos for guests as souvenirs.

cool bartender mixing up drinks for us.

super like! coconut and black label. smooth. but idk the name.

it's kinda hard to describe my experience at the event. it not helping that i didnt take many photos that night, but just imagine lots of waiters / waitresses waiting on you, serving a free flow of delicate chocolate truffles, signature cocktails, and black label through out the entire night. deco was fab, setup was fab, stage was fab, layout of events was fab, everything was so classy and stylo. only let down was the music, thus making the whole night lack something essential.

still, it was great. and i actually got to go. there must have people wanting in but failed to get passes. lol. i feel like the passes might just have been wasted on me as i didnt party hard enough. apologies for that :P


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Blogging in the Bus !

Am on the road now. Spending at least 2 hours of my birthday alone in bus :|

The result?
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This random post with random pictures.

Me with my earphones on and all wrapped up like wan tan.

Lomo autumn effect ♥

Cccold ! Need to go to the bathroom urgently. Plus super jam now. Faster reach ah!


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Hand-written.

What do you do when you're all fucked up and no one else gives a fuck about you?

too much that i'm asking for...

squeeze in some time for this before i continue my robot regime @.@

it's been work non stop. and yeah, i'm already losing most of my human like behaviour and characteristics.

SEGi n UPM are killing me. it's like they've teamed up to murder me mercilessly from the inside. sucking away my vitality faster than i can recharge, leaving me barren and hollow. and i'm here, dying a slow and painful death

when i'm not taking orders from bossy bosses, running errands, rushing to complete tasks dumped onto me with ridiculous deadlines and instructions, i'm doing all that i can for my assignments, for the very sole purpose to pass and scrape through all my assessments.

would love to shut / power down my brain and other bodily functions and just blank out.

you wouldn't believe it, but through all this, i've actually learnt the meaning of true sacrifice @.@ cheesy, i know. but still, i've never had to sacrifice so much before! sleeping time, paktor time, family time, yumcha time, self indulgence time...

and i wonder... why did i ever sign up for this in the first place?

still, quitting isn't one of my options. i'm just not a quitter i guess :)

a smile! it's a wonder i managed to pull that off.

alright. break's over.



i miss slacking.


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picture post :)

i don't really like it when all i see on my blog are word posts after word posts.

am gonna hang up some pictures here.

colourize this place a lil :D

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i always have to force her to take pic with me...
though she grumbled, this turned out pretty nice ♥



my first bite of tutti frutti !
baby sis belanja-ed me. hee.



and yes. i forced her to take this one too.
lol.

psyco-ed her to geta pair of converse with me xD
hardly 2 weeks old. and they're already covered in mud.



laa... no more hanging out till she comes back in june :/

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i don't admit it much...
but i miss her.
i don't show it much...
but i like having her around.

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till our next rendezvous.



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in class.... once more.

my brain operates at such a speed where even snails find offensive.

i sounded so dumb with the lecturer and the 32 other students looking at me. wondering what in the world i was trying to say.

couldn't compose short, witty answers even though the questions were about me. super fail at being spontaneous. i had time. wasn't even the first one to be called.

it's like i don't know myself.

questions shot at us:

• what's your name
• where you're from
• what you're doing
• how much do you know about research
• what do you hope to obtain at the end of this course

i struggled at answering all those questions. only managed to blurt out my name without getting it wrong. i got so tongue tied. stammered. syntax, grammar all fail. stringed a few random words together and mumbled them out.

listening to the others talk about themselves... pouring out glamourous infomation... sharing their ambition... they sounded so confident and mature. they know. they know what they want. what they're doing. while i shrunk in my seat... feeling small and puny.

honestly, what i had in mind at that time were all rubbish and nonsensical answers. typical for childish-forever-stuck-in-that-stage me.

i have zero idea on what i'm doing or where i want to go. i have no solid plans for the future and i dont even know why i'm doing this. probably just escaping from making further decisions in life.

besides, it's not only that i don't know myself well. it's now more obvious then ever that I fail to speak well in front of large groups. super awkward and stutter like no body's business. gahHH. i sound like such a geek.


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on a different note, am really glad to be in class again. sitting down listening, absorbing, learning, hearing bout things i never knew existed, taking notes. can't be happier. absolutely calms me down and i even managed to relax a bit; with it being such a nice contrast to the never ending hecticness and fast pace at the workplace which drains all the life out of me.

as a good friend of mine once said: it's just the beginning.

which it really is. assignment all not piling up yet.

let's hope i'll be able to survive this.

*fingers crossed*



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Emotional Affairs

no no... i'm not in one. at least not right now, or have not for a really long time... just sharing something i've read cause i think that tonnes of people do fall willingly or even unrealisingly into an Emotional Affair (EA). it's not deadly or anything, but if does have great effect on a person, especially if he/she is in a relationship and we all fail to realise that. effects, mostly adverse, aren't exactly fun to deal with. awareness is what we all lack. read on. pretty good stuff i promise. and it most certainly won't be a waste of your time.

favourite quote from the article:

Don’t believe everything you think.

the mind is a great paradox – it is possible to be fooled by your own thinking.

Click here for the full post:

EMOTIONAL AFFAIRS – The Truth

or visit:

http://www.stopstressingnow.com/2012/02/emotional-affairs-the-truth/


EA.

have you been in one?
or are you in one right now?

do you realise that you're in the danger zone?
or are you 100% aware that you're playing with fire and lovin' it?


whatever it is, i won't judge.


random thought: the person who wrote this must have been pretty involved in EAs to understand so much about them.


happy Friday peeps!

ps:// Avril concert is TOMORROW!!

am so gonna camp there ;D



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Bad.

The mud in a field.
The foul play of a match.
The turbulence on a flight.
The rotten bits on an apple.
The lousy ending to a good movie.


All bad.


In your eyes, i'm all that.

Everything i do, fails to touch you.

Till the day i die, i'll never be good enough for you.


giving up feels like the most probable option here. regardless of how hard i push, it'll go nowhere. you don't see that i try. you don't feel what i care. you don't think that i'm doing enough. i'm at a roadblock. i really don't know what to do anymore.


heart. halts.


heart. cracks.


heart. bleeds.



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6 days to 18 Feb!

can't wait for my date with THE Avril Lavigne!

and yes. it'll be my 1st concert. side tracking... i kinda have got a lot of 1sts this yearrr!

random post here. been listening to her songs everyday in the office whenever i can. looping all of her songs in my playlist. singing along. saving the lyrics in my brain :D

random lyrics here. take a guess. see how many song titles you can name / pick up on the song where the lyrics stopped:

♥ I’ve got a backbone stronger than yours.

♥ What’s wrong with my tongue…

♥ ‘Cause I can, ‘cause I can do it better…

♥ You're always feeling sorry for yourself…

♥ You don’t know trouble, I’m a hell of a scandal.

♥ Everything that I do, reminds me of you…

♥ I wanna put your hand in my pocket…

♥ I think about the little things that make life great.

♥ You know I won’t give in…

♥ I laugh myself to sleep, it’s my lullaby.

♥ And you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get…

♥ When you’re all alone in the lands of forever…

♥ It’s not supposed to feel this way…

any 13/13 score?

counting down the days :)

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